Sunday, November 29, 2009

A romantic beach wedding...

I was at a friend's wedding tonight....Colleen's..my coursemate in uni and clinical partner in 4th and final year...Colleen and David's wedding was a beach wedding at Avilion Port Dickson...my first time ever attending a beach wedding...so i was very excited with the prospect...

Since i had no car at my disposal in KL, i had to rely on Khai Meng, another ex-uni coursemate to drive me there (he was attending the wedding as well)...he came to pick me up about 4.30pm and it was already raining at that time....i thought oh dear, hopefully it's not raining in Port Dickson...so we drove about an hour in the rain, got lost a little, listened to and sang along to Khai Meng's pirated cds (Chinese songs)...and finally reached Avilion about 6pm...but it was raining too...

I quickly changed into my dress (i wasn't wearing the dress coz i didn't want to crease it during the drive) and went to look for Colleen...she looked so beautiful in her cream coloured strapless wedding dress...an at least 2 sizes smaller than the last time i saw her....eventually the rain stopped at about 7pm...and so the beach wedding was still on!! but we totally missed the sunset by the time they set up the whole venue again...

But it was still beautiful...and romantic...when Colleen walked down the aisle with David, me and a few others who were sitting at the aisle seats threw rose petals at the wedding couple...Colleen and David exchanged their personalized vows...and exchanged their wedding bands....then they poured coloured-sands into a heart-shaped bottle...apparently that signifies the merging of two lives as one...so sweet...then it was time for my favourite part of a wedding ceremony...the kissing part...:) needless to say, i cried...not all throughout the ceremony, but certain parts lah...and ruined quite a bit of my make-up...

Dinner was buffet style....and the spread was quite extravagant....fried rice, spagetthi marinara, steamed egg with eggplant, lamb chop, beef, chicken tandoori, lobster, crabs, sashimi and salad spread...fruits and dessert...and ice-cream...and cute little cupcakes topped with green icing....as usual, i ate plates after plates..hehe...i especially liked the pistachio creme brulee....

David made a special toast to Colleen...which involved a lot of magic tricks like making flowers appear from nowhere and levitating bottle of champagne and glass and making a white dove apparate from thin air....well, not somethin that will impress me...but Khai Meng was quite impressed that he said, no wonder Colleen married David, i would want to marry him too...hahahaha...

Colleen and David's honeymoon suite was at one of the chalets that were built on stilts on the water...and theirs was the one on the edge...we managed to catch the sunset there and it was soooo romantic...now i know why ppl love beach and sunset weddings....but i guess it would be a safer bet to have a beach wedding in February or March when the rain is not the evening's constant companion....

It was quite sad to leave...and i hardly get to talk to Colleen...but then that's expected...the bride's always too busy entertaining guests...but it was good to meet up with my other old uni mates...we left PD about close to 11pm...Khai Meng and i were listening to Wang LeeHom's cd...then we listened to Khalil Fong and Joanna Wang songs which was incorporated in a cd...the beauty of piracy...you can put all the songs you like in a disc...hehe...

So, that was Colleen's wedding...of the 4 of us who used to hang out together in uni, Chiew Ping got married first...now she has a daughter age 2...then Alisa got married...and just gave birth to a baby boy...and now Colleen's also married...hopefully she'll get a baby soon too...so that leaves me...and of course when i gave Colleen one last hug before i left, she asked me when's my turn? and she answered for me..next year...i was like yea right...sure...que sera sera...

Friday, November 27, 2009

The Grim Reaper strikes again....

I'm post call today...and i'm dozing off as i'm typing this...suffice to say that i had quite an eventful night yesterday...boss transferred out one patient yesterday so i had an empty bed in ICU...but by 8pm, the medical MO referred to me a 34 year-old man who had a mixture of symptoms that suggested dengue and AGE/typhoid....i shall not go into details of his short stay in the ICU...to cut to the chase, he arrived in ICU at 835pm and the grim reaper won a soul at 1245am....cause of death was severe pulmonary haemorrhage...but due to what? i don't know....probably dengue shock syndrome but there wasn't time to send dengue serology....and family declined post mortem...

I thought that would have been the end of my eventful night but it was not to be...got a call from the ortho HO...said her MO asked to come intubate a patient in female ortho ward...i was like, your MO don't know how to intubate patient is it? so i had to go anyway...patient was found pulseless and probably blue by the nurse during their night monitoring...which meant that patient might have been dead longer than the time the nurses noted her condition...the HOs CPRed her...and i came to intubate her...after 30 mins of CPR...she didn't come back...so i went to document my part in the case note and found out that patient has been issued DIL/DNR....i was like, WTH??!! somebody should have at least told me...so that no one's time, effort and energy would be wasted....not to mention a definite law suit if this happened in the US....

Managed to sleep a little after 330am...but at 7am, the medical MO came and woke me up... referred a young girl with dengue and typhoid for ICU care...they were intubating her for respiratory distress...but she was a non-local and boss was not keen to bring in non-locals into ICU...so the patient was sent to female acute ward...so after passing over to Pang, i left the hospital and came home....

As soon as i reached home, i got a msg from boss which read : Did i say you can leave without passing over?...shit...i totally forgot that he's like my other lady boss who expects the post call MO to pass over directly to the boss...so i replied: Do you want me to come back now?...well, good thing he didn't insist that i go back to the hospital...i was tired and i had a whole week of laundry to finish up before i catch my plane back to KL...heck, i haven't even pack yet....it's a good thing i can pack quickly...so now i'm done packing...only left the laundry...and i don't think i can keep my eyes open for long anymore.......

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Sometimes love just ain't enough....

I was listening to the radio tonight...and the DJ played an old Patti Smith song called "Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough"...yea, i was listening to MYFM and why would a chinese radio station be playing an 80s English song yea? Actually, Stef Sun covered this song and tonight the DJ was playing English songs sung/covered by Chinese singers...

There's something about this song that is so sad...i'm a hopeless romantic and a bloody idealist... and i grew up believing in the foolish notion that love does conquer all...that if 2 persons really and truly love each other, they will beat the odds together...so when sometimes love just ain't enough, what else is there to hope for?

Found the lyrics and thought i'd just share them with you:

Now, I don't want to lose you

but I don't want to use you
just to have somebody by my side.
And I don't want to hate you,
I don't want to take you
but I don't want to be the one to cry.

And that don't really matter to anyone anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
and I keep seeing you walk through that door.

C/O: But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough.

Now, I could never change you
I don't want to blame you.
Baby, you don't have to take the fall.
Yes, I may have hurt you, but I did not desert you.
Maybe I just want to have it all.

It makes a sound like thunder
it makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth,
I keep thinking something's gonna change.

And there's no way home
when it's late at night and you're all alone.
Are there things that you wanted to say?
And do you feel me beside you in your bed,
there beside you, where I used to lay?

And there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.

And in case you want to listen to the song, here's the link :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aaTiLzKJMAg&feature=related

So why did this song strike a chord? I don't know...maybe it reminds me of my past relationships.. which have obviously not work out...or maybe i'm just afraid that it could happen to my future relationship(s)...i definitely do not want to be the one who cry...and there's definitely a terrible terrible danger in loving somebody too much...and it's really really sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust/ they can't touch...but like the fool i am, i'll always hope that maybe this time, it'll be better...things will be different...but a part of me is afraid...of getting my heart broken...again...

I would liken the pain of a broken heart to birth pain...in that the pain is so unbearable that you usually develop selective amnesia towards the pain as soon as you see your beloved...either in the form of a lover or a newborn baby...and you'd gladly go through the process of a relationship or pregnancy until your heart breaks or your water breaks....the difference though is that at least in child birth, the pain in short-lived...but the pain of a broken heart may last a lifetime...time can never really heal a broken heart....it probably can just slowly anaesthetize the pain...

Sunday, November 22, 2009

The Time Traveller's Wife

I got the book before i watched the movie...but i watched the movie in a plane before i actually read the book...i just finished reading the book a few days back...Jasmine told me Jimmy said the movie was very disappointing...i guess that happens when you read the book first then only you watch the movie...i liked the movie as it was...but there were a few loose ends that didn't make sense...and in a story that revolves around chrono-displacement aka time-travelling, things can get quite messy and confusing...but i felt that it was a good movie...it justified the book...didn't change too drastically... but when i finally read the book, a lot of things kind of explained itself...

The book is really quite extraordinary...i think it's actually quite difficult to write a book about time-travelling...too many dates to remember...but the author did a good job in weaving the plots and creating coherence in the story....and Eric Bana as Henry is quite the perfect choice...hehe, he's cute...Rachael Macadams as Clare, Henry's wife played her role well too...so that while i was reading the book, i actually imagined Eric Bana and Rachael Macadams as Henry and Clare....

So how is life for a chrono-displaced person? it's really weird when your future is actually your past and your present self has no idea whatsoever of what your future self has done in the past...already confused? try reading the book...this book is at it's very heart, a love story..of a time-traveller who found a woman who was willing to be part of his messed-up past, present and future....imagine yourself as Clare...you've actually met your future husband at age 6...but he came from the future to see you when he was in his 30s...and you've been dating Henry since age 6, in secret coz you can't tell anyone about this..people wouldn't believe you anyway...but his present self has no inkling of that since it's his future self who went back in time....so when Clare (age 20) finally met Henry (age 28)...it was actually Henry's first time meeting Clare....

You know how at time you've wished that if only you could turn back time, you'd change the things you've done or didn't do? apparently, you can't...you can only go back in time and watch the horrible things that have happened in the past...again and again...and there's nothing you can do to prevent or change what happened...like how Henry's mother died in a freak car accident and he survived by time-travelling...but although he kept going back to the incident, there was nothing he could do to change anything...and like how Henry died...he died at age 43...in year 2000 just as the clock struck 12am...but the thing was, he was already killed in year 1984....and he was actually killed by his father-in-law...accidentally...how bizarre is that huh?

I'm still trying to fathom the concept of time-travelling...but it's a bit too deep for me....but i enjoyed reading the book...everytime Clare and Henry had their secret dates in the Meadow, i'm reminded of certain aspects of my life...or when Henry disappears on his time-travelling tours...Clare would be left alone and longing...she asked this question, Why is love intensified by absence? and i can relate to that...but i guess this time-travelling business is really not for the faint-hearted...meddling with the past/ future can have disastrous consequences...although at least for Henry, he found the love of his life, albeit for a short time...

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Sylvia & Sashi's Wedding Dinner...

I was quite tempted to put this post's title as " Sylvia & Sashi's Wedding Dinner..and the horrible day at work before that"...but that's a bit too wordy...and it kinda ruins the title...anyway, before i go into Sylvia's wedding dinner, i just had to get this off my system...yes, my horrible day at work on Friday...

So i was post call on Thursday...and i had no idea what the plans would be for ICU patients on Thursday and Friday...so i was at Sylvia's house on Thursday night and got myself nail art on my finger nails..thinking that it should be a less busy day since it's Friday...boy, was i wrong...went to CME in the morning... suddenly got a msg saying, there's a tracheostomy for an ICU patient at 930am...i thought dang!!! all the transportation will definitely ruin my nail art...but was i in for a bigger shock or what?... so just a little background information about a normal transportation for a trachy patient who's stable on ventilator and does not require inotropes...you need to carry the ventilator, the emergency kit, the oxygen tanks and the patient's case notes...that's already quite a handful and you need at least 3 personnel to handle the transportation....

But this particular patient for trachy was not only on inotrope, he had 2 bloody chest tubes...when i left the hospital on Thursday he still had only 1 chest tube, which was bearable...but they just had to insert another one just before the trachy lah...and his platelets were low so we need to carry his blood and platelets as well....the worst thing was boss ORDERED that at no time should his chest tubes be clamped...i was praying to God the whole time to not let the patient die on me...

The tracheostomy was supposed to be at 9am...we only managed to leave ICU at 945am...i won't even go into the details of waiting for the damn ambulance, the transferring of the patient from trolley to trolley and how the patient desaturated when i clamped the chest tubes in order for trolley transfer...so i had to unclamp and move the patient with the chest drains on the floor...and the patient desaturated again in the ambulance so i had to manually bag him till we reached the ENT clinic...

When we finally reached there, it was 1030am...already i rue this day...so we started with the trachy which only took 30 mins...and boss actually called the HO who helped in escorting the patient, back to ICU...and he bloody knew that we needed as many ppl to help in transporting the patient...and the last straw was when i received a msg from boss in bold saying: DO NOT CLAMP THE CHEST TUBES!!! I was so pissed that my first reaction was to reply him this: F**K OFF!!! now i don't usually swear in public but boss was really pushing my limits...

The transport back to ICU was worse now that we had one person less to help us carry the stuffs...i really felt like walking away from everything and let boss settle the mess himself...as if things weren't bad enough...the oxygen tank ran out of oxygen...and we had to change to another tank...and patient desaturated again...when we finally reached ICU again, i was in such a foul mood that i actually shouted at my colleague...though the person i wanted to shout at was boss... i really felt like shouting at him: NEXT TIME, YOU BLOODY ESCORT THE PATIENT YOURSELF!!!! and he dared to tell me the chest tubes weren't fluctuating anymore...i felt like bloody slapping him...coz the chest drains were bubbling like a damn bubble bath!!! men can be such asses!!!

So that totally ruined my day..not to mention my nail art...uugh!!! thankfully the patient was ok...except that we killed a bit more grey matter with all the hypoxic episodes but well, his GCS was already low anyway...and thankfully the rest of the afternoon was less eventful...if boss had asked (oh wait, he doesn't 'ask', he just bloody orders people around) me to escort another patient, i think i'd have totally blown my top...

Elaine came from Kudat and met me at the hospital...i left work about 430pm and we went straight to the nail parlour...coz my nail art by then was just a hideous looking mess...and i didn't have nail polish remover at home...so it was either go buy one or go to the nail parlour and repaint my nails..i thought i deserved the latter so to the nail parlour it was...so i had my nails repainted in this colour called "kisses of peach"...and Elaine did nail art on her toes...her toe nails paint matched the dress she was wearing for the dinner...

After doing our nails, we went to the hair salon to get our hair washed and blow-dried...by then it was almost 6pm so we rushed home and bathed...splashed on some make-up and made it to Shangri-La Tanjung Aru's Grand Ballroom just in time before Sylvia and Sashi were about to walk into the hall...hehe...Sylvia looked so lovely in her wedding dress...it was a simple cream-coloured strapless laced dress with a long train...and the hall was packed with probably 70 tables...and hers was a dinner graced by Datuks and Datins...there was even a live string quartet playing classical music....talk about wow....

Food was good...managed to catch up with some ex-colleagues who were at the dinner as well... halfway through the dinner, Sylvia changed into another aquamarine silk dress which has a low back...i love dresses with low back...very sexy....when dinner ended and most of the guests have left, we took pics with the bride and groom...by the time Elaine and i left, it was 11pm plus... went to toilet...and then Elaine and i were busy taking photos of ourselves through the mirrors..in the toilet...hahaha...the silly things girls do...

So i guess it was a good end to what started out as a horrible day...friends' weddings always lift my mood...and i'm just glad i'm in a job where i don't have to bring work home...well, at least for now i don't have to...

Friday, November 20, 2009

My 1st nail art...

I'm post call today...back in Queen these 2 weeks...2 admissions and 1 death...quite the standard call...and i agreed to do post call locum...hahaha...came back after locum...totally crashed till about 5pm....got up, bathed and went over to Sylvia's place...she's getting married tomorrow...so today she had a pre-wedding dinner/party at her house...

It was good to meet Sylvia again...she told me it was a casual dinner, so i wore t-shirt and shorts...but she was wearing this hot, halter-neck, low-back, red dress...hehe..it's ok..i'm not the bride-to-be...anyway, she had some people over her place who did manicure and pedicure for her guests... and Sylvia made sure i had a chance at it...so after we had dinner, i had my ma
nicure...not something i do often...i think i've only done it maybe less than 5 times in my lifetime...yea yea, i know...i'm not the well-groomed type...the girl who did my manicure actually cut my cuticles too deep till i was bleeding from a few nail beds...not a pretty sight...

Then another girl did nail art for me...she was rushing coz she still had many clients awaiting..so she used nail stickers on m
y nails...this would be my 1st time getting nail art on my finger nails...they actually don't look too bad...unfortunately the stickers are not sticking too well on my painted nails..and i'd be working tomorrow...not sure if they'd survive peripheral round tomorrow..hehe..and since i'm not exactly 'delicate' and lady-like, i doubt my nail art would last 3 days...so i've taken pics of my nails before the nail art suffers further ruin...doctor and nail art is a relationship that would never work out...too impractical...hehe...

Anyway, here are som
e pics of my nail art..i just hope it'll still look presentable for Sylvia's wedding dinner tomorrow...Sylvia, thanks a lot for the treat...really appreciate it...:)










Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Alisa and Baby Darrien...

Alisa was post date 3 or 4 days yesterday....since it was Monday, she went to the hospital for IOL... by 5pm something, she was in the 1st stage of labour....cervical os was dilated 3cm....Jasmine said they gave her epidural and started her on IV pitocin....Jasmine was getting this live update from Alisa as her labour progressed...and knowing Jasmine, she sent messages to everyone of our friends to inform them that Alisa's baby was well on the way....

I went out to ta pau dinner....came back and ate....by about 8pm, Alisa's os was fully dilated... goodness, must have been the shortest 1st stage labour for a primigravida i've ever known of... the amazing powers of prayers...coz i'm sure many of us were praying for her speedy delivery....so by 8.21pm, Baby Darrien was born and weighed 3.55kg...wish i had a pic of him to show....so happy for Alisa and Anthony...hopefully their next baby would be a girl...then she'll have Darrien as a big brother...

I've concluded that if you want a smooth-sailing pregnancy that ends in a safe vaginal delivery with no complications, make sure you are working in a Klinik Kesihatan throughout your pregnancy and are surrounded by family who can help and support you...ok, not really evidence-based coz i'm sure there're no large, double-blinded studies done regarding this....i'm just concluding from case studies...coz most of my seniors who were pregnant and working in hospitals, they had very eventful i.e. complicated pregnancies and their labours ended up with Caesarean sections...

So i guess if i ever get pregnant, i'd better get myself transferred to a Klinik Kesihatan...but that's quite unlikely...so i guess i'll have to be prepared for an eventful pregnancy...hahahaha...counting my eggs before they hatch....how typical of an idealist...anyway, while i'm at it, i wish my firstborn would be a boy...not becoz i'm a bloody chinese who idolizes the notion of 'must have a male in the family to carry on the family's lineage'....that's BS...it's just that i've always wished for an elder brother...but i don't have one....so i wish that my daughter(s) will have an elder brother...

Monday, November 16, 2009

My new webcam...

I'm post call today...was busy the whole day yesterday, trying to finish up the leftover cases from the day before..mostly ortho cases...glad to say that i managed to finish them up by lunch time...yay!!... then continued with the ones that were posted during my call...managed to finish up everything by midnight...

Went to ICU and was asleep by about 1am...thought it'd be undisturbed sleep till 8am...but got a call at 430am...someone posted a patient for exploratory laparotomy...5 mins later, referred the same patient for ICU admission...so i guess the operation was off then...hehe...got to go back to sleep till 8am...but poor Fazrena had to settle the patient...but i guess he was in good hands coz by morning he was no longer on inotropes....

Came home and slept some more...got up about 230pm...then went to Karamunsing to hunt for a webcam...finally found one that's not too expensive...rm49 only...cute blue one...pic quality 8 megapix...not bad...guess i can have video chats now...try taking a pic of the webcam to put it up here..but the pic i took with my digicam is blur...so never mind lah...

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

My Landlord, the fix-it man...

I'm post call today...i slept at 430am and only left 2 un-emergency cases for Hoe when i passed over...it seems that these days, the definition of emergency is "if you can't fit/ finish them in the elective list, then they're emergency cases"...right...can you see my eyes rolling?

So i left the hospital about 830am...went to eat my favourite beef noodles in Damai...and went to the office to get a letter...yea, my transfer to the surgery department has finally been approved...but the weird thing was, when i saw the letter, it didn't mention the date i was supposed to go over to the 'dark side'...heh, it's kind of like an inside joke among us GA MOs....we're supposedly the 'light'...and so our counter-parts are the 'dark side'...right...Kean Khang started this i think...but really, no offence meant to any individuals or departments...;P...so since big boss was in the office, i discussed with her regarding when i was to go over to surgery...she was raving on and on about how little MOs we have left in GA and how she's trying to push the state to give us more MOs...so i told her that if i can go over to surgery in January 2010, then it'd be good...hopefully by December we can get some graduating HOs to join the department, then at least i won't feel so bad leaving the department short...

Came home to find a strange car parked in my porch...and my grill door unlocked...nothing to be alarmed off really...it's just my landlord who came by to fix our plumbing....the downstairs bathroom has been leaking into the kitchen floor for almost a week...Jasmine informed our landlord yesterday and he came straightaway to fix it...my landlord is quite the fix-it man...he even helped change the light bulb in my bathroom coz i didn't have a ladder and i couldn't reach it with just standing on the chair...yea, now i don't have to bathe in the dark anymore...and he cleaned my room's air-cond filters as well...while i'm typing this post, he's fixing the leaking tap that connects to our washing machine....i wonder if he's a plumber...

I'm actually really sleepy but i'm just keeping awake while my landlord is in the house...i'd like to say 'my' house but it's actually 'his' house...sorry, i know...lame...post call brain...right, gonna check if he's done...if not, i'm gonna crash anyway...later got locum...

Sunday, November 8, 2009

O&G-GA Night 2009

I'm not on call this weekend...Hallelujah!!! thank you Hoe for being so kind to me...and co-incidentally, Ana V bugged me to go to the O&G-GA Night organized by the Likas Hospital...which was held last night....being the anti-social hermit i am, my first reaction was not to go...but since i haven't attended a social event for ages, i eventually got the better of me and decided to go anyway....i wouldn't really be going alone coz Grace and Karen would be there too...i need to be surrounded by comfort zone/people....

The theme for that night was body art and tattoo...and incidentally, i have 2 temp tattoos with dolphin designs on hand...so didn't bother hunting for new ones...dinner was supposed to start at 6pm...but i only finished working out about 5pm...after bathing, tried putting on one of the temp tattoo on my arm... unfortunately, that got ruined...it didn't stick to my arm...so it was patchy...crap!! had to rub it off...then put the other one on my left chest just above the breast...thank goodness that one stuck well...if not, i would have been tattoo-less...so finally after rushing through make-up, i was ready at 10 minutes to 7pm...

I messaged Grace to a
sk if she was there already...she replied that she was just about to leave her house also...hahahaha...Malaysian time to the max...by the time we reached the restaurant, people were still streaming in...good thing i didn't rush to get ready...the event started about 730pm i think... it was really fascinating looking at other people's tattoo and body art...face painting and body painting....i thought i was the only one with dolphin tattoo...then i saw the big boss' kid with nicer dolphin tattoo on his arm....i want!!!

The performances were very entertaining...and the bosses and HOs were very cool about performing impromptu...these people really love to dance...and the last performance was absolutely gastric-perforating...i totally laughed till my stomach almost burst...they were performing this song by Wondergirls titled "Nobody"...i think it's some Korean group or something...but the HOs who were performing it were male HOs...hahahahaha...good thing they didn't dress up as drags...that would have been icing to the cake...

Oh, and i actually won something from the lucky draw...usually, i have no luck at lucky draws...i think i've only won once previously....but last night, when one of the boss was picking the numbers, i actually said silently, "come on, pick my number"...and lo...my number was called!!!...i guess dolphins do bring luck huh? i got RM100 vouchers from Parkson...nice!! can go shoppping...:) so i guess i was glad i went for this dinner...i supposed the hermit needs to get out from her shell once in a blue moon...then again, i have 2 wedding dinners to attend on the 3rd and final week of November...a bit overwhelming for yours truly...but since i love attending friends' weddings...i guess i'll have to brave the masses....

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Lost...

I seem to have disappeared from my blog for a while since my last post...i've been away...out of town...to meet up old friends...to get away from work....i'm not sure when it happened, but i think along the way since i started working, i've kinda got lost...lost my focus...lost my passion...lost my hope... i guess that's why i keep taking breaks from work...but i guess that's not really a solution yea? and even after my breaks, i can't seem to rediscover the things i've lost...but then, at least i enjoyed my break... had a good island holiday...met up with John, Kian Ming, Jess, Daniel and Wai Kit....some of them i haven't met for ages...

One of my ex-housemate came to our place today....she dropped the bomb...saying that she went to JKNS to hand in her resignation letter...she said she has lost all hope in the system...i guess she's the melancholic type...cares too much...works too hard...one of the best doctor i've ever known...if i were sick i'd definitely want her to care for me...so i was quite shocked when even she seems to have lost her faith in the system...but i do feel it will be a waste if she did quit...hopefully she can take a break and get a transfer or something...

I'm post call today...and my calls have lost the distinction between bad and good...i think i shall stop categorizing my calls from now on...i don't think i'll ever have a good call in my life...coz even my good call is nowhere close to the good calls my other colleagues get...but of course i shouldn't be complaining about bad calls when all i lost is sleep...i'd rather lose that than losing patients' lives...at least i get to come home in the morning and sleep the whole day off...

On a brighter note, a mail that i thought was lost in post finally reached me today...it actually came yesterday but since i wasn't home yesterday, i only saw it this evening when i woke up...Colleen's wedding invitation is finally here...very nice card...can't wait to attend her wedding...unfortunately her wedding is on the same day as Khee Liam's...which means i can only attend one wedding...and so i won't be going for Khee Liam's wedding...so sad...:(...this is a good time to have a clone of myself...

I think as we grow up, we lose a lot of things along the way...i know i have...which is why there's always a part of me who resisted growing up...the lost of innocence...the lost of racial indiscrimination...the lost of unpretentiousness...the lost of child-like faith...the lost of a carefree uncomplicated life...just to list a few...but then, in resisting growing up, i have also lost quite a few things...though i don't mind the lost too much...the lost of good judgment...the lost of appreciation for society's norm...the lost of sensibility...the lost of consideration for others....oh well, i guess we lose some, we gain some...