他不知道的事。。。

第一次看见他， 以为他是华人。。因为他的wide epicanthal folds出卖了他。。。。后来听到别人叫他的名字。。。阿! 为什么不是华人名?。。。原来是回教的。。。不过已经注意到他了。。。他笑时候有很可爱的crow's feet。。。也不懂为什么会喜欢看到他的皱纹。。。我一定是疯了。。。也许是他长的像一个我喜欢过的人吧。。。

今天他说他其实是华人。。。不过重小就被别人养。。。养父母是马来人。。。也不知道该不该相信他。。。听了之后有很多问题想问他,又不敢。。。今天也注意到他的长睫毛。。。太不公平了。。。为什么他是华人又有那么长的睫毛。。。我的又生那么短。。。

刚才他说了一句很让我好奇的话。。。他告诉别人我以前在urology部门很久所以一定很厉害放CBD。。。我好像没有跟他讲过呢。。。他是乱猜还是真知道? 奇怪。。。还有， 他说他看我的身份证号码吓了一跳。。。原来我是kelantan的人。。。这个我记得我跟他说过。。。我奇怪的是为什么他去看我的身份证号码呢?

好了啦。。。别幻想了啦。。。这是不可能的事。。。主啊，拜托啦。。。我说要嫁给华人。。。不是回教的华人阿。。。你就别让我喜欢上他了好不好? 没结果的是就别再又第二次吧。。。虽然我每天上班都是靠他的笑容度过的。。。不过我知道，你对我的爱是比谁都更深。。。所以我会选择跟你也不会选择跟他的。。。

It's a public holiday today :)

Hallelujah!!! Thank God for His mercy...today is a public holiday...i know, it's a Sunday and everywhere else in the world is a weekend but not so in Kelantan...actually this public holiday is so uncalled for...i guess the Kelantan government were so sure they were going to win the finals in the football match yesterday that they declared today as public holiday even before the match started... because of that, our free fibular flap for mandible reconstruction was cancelled today...i wasn't too disappointed though...but i think my bosses were...

Still had to go for round this morning...then the bosses came for round...we did the rounds and dressings till about 130pm...one of the boss came for morning round on Friday and Saturday and today...he even did his own dressing for some patients...such dedication...and they said only paediatrcians have OCD...after we finished round, the whole group of us went for lunch together...then i walked home coz where i'm staying now, it's only about 5 mins walk to the hospital...

Tomorrow there'll be a neovagina reconstruction with bilateral pudendal thigh flaps together with the gynae team...it'll be interesting to assist coz i've never seen it done before...been reading something about the embryology and anatomy of the female genital system and the procedures...hopefully won't be asked too many questions that i can't answer tomorrow...

The longest 2 days in my life...and more to come...

So the bunch of us started working on Wednesday morning...went to the hospital at 730am...it was our elective OT day...so day 1 of life in the department we get thrown into the furnace...we had a free fibular flap...saw 2 cleft lip repairs...assisted one frontalis advancement...and then scrubbed in for the flap as well...the flap started at 1030am...we only finished at 330am Thursday morning...and had to send the patient to ICU...had to made sure the transfer was uneventful so that the flap won't be compromised...and no, that wasn't the end of it yet...

There was a wound debridement and escharotomy in the emergency OT so us taggers had to stay back to assist and observed...and it ended about 6am plus...by the time we got out of OT and got home it was past 630am...so i only had time to bathe and brush my teeth and it was off to work again...i managed to sleep for like an hour during the escharotomy...but i really had problem keeping my eyes open during the briefing by our head of department...and there was a free flap which was postpone from yesterday which initially was cancelled...but then after lunch we got a msg saying it was on again...groan!!!!

So we went into OT...the latissimus dorsi free flap for foot reconstruction started at about 3pm...and we managed to get out of OT by 1030pm...woohoo!!! that was a miracle...at least Cinderella managed to get home before 12 midnight...really thank God for that...wanted to go to church this morning (in Kelantan we go to church on Fridays instead of Sundays coz Fridays are off days and Sundays are working days)...but when i woke up it was 1030am...hehe, church was halfway through...Suet Lai said don't worry...God will forgive me...He understands that i'm too tired...i just hope this won't be a regular thing coz i really want to start going to church again every week coz i haven't been doing that back in KK...

Oh well, at least today i got to rest a bit...managed to study a bit too...though half of the stuffs i read i couldn't understand...hopefully i'll be able to study enough to pass my 1st year exam...so many things to read...so little time...although it's really tiring to be in OT for long hours, but i actually like the things i'm observing and learning...so i guess it's not too bad...hopefully i can pull through these 4 years...gonna need lots of prayers and miracles...and probably won't be updating my blog as often...then again, since it's my only outlet, i may have more input...hehe...

Registered....

I've been in Kelantan since last Friday...and have been house/room-hunting since...Suet Lai and Jacintha 'pseudo-kidnapped' me to Perhentian Island on Saturday...all the while i had the idea that we were just going to the beach for a day trip...but i was glad for the getaway...only thing was i didn't bring an extra change of clothes and toothbrush...hehe, excuse to buy t-shirt and shorts...we stayed at this place called Bubu at Long Beach, Perhentian Kecil...the room was quite pricey...rm350 per night for a double...but it was quite cozy...and the view of the beach was just too lovely that i was trigger-happy with my camera...well, this was probably my last holiday before my suffering begins...

Spent the afternoon enjoying a nice Swedish massage and foot reflexology...and then wile the time away lying on a beach chair under an umbrella, reading a book and enjoying the view and breeze...ahhhh, this is the life...didn't see any sunset though since we were in the east coast...went to this restaurant called Oh La La for dinner...which was ran by these bunch of ang mohs...so i tried their beef wellington...which was pretty decent to me...initially we wanted to stay up and go to the beach about early morning to watch the stars and hopefully catch a few shooting stars...but i guess age is really catching up and so we were sleeping by 1am plus...

Came back on Sunday morning...managed to find a room which was quite spacious...and the rent was quite cheap...i still need to get some furnitures for the room...but at least the place was flood-safe...and the hall is so spacious i can have a party every weekend if i wanted to...except that it probably won't happen since i'd hardly be at home...and the downside is that i still can't move in coz the previous tenants still have their stuffs in the room...so until today, i'm officially home/roomless and a refugee...thank God for Suet Lai who allowed me to bunk in with her...

So this morning was the registration for the master programme...met up with quite a few old friends...it's good to see back familiar faces...some from back in uni...some from work...the registration didn't take too long...Sharon and i were done by about lunch time...so Jacintha came to pick us up for lunch...had arabic food at this place called Arabesque...had nasi mandi kambing...

So tomorrow is orientation...and then my suffering would start...gosh, this actually feels a bit like marriage...once you've signed the papers....you're bounded...for life...ok, at least for the master programme it would only be for the next 4 years...oh well, looking from the way things are, i might never get anywhere close to signing marriage papers...