Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Miracles do happen...

My call on last Sunday was quite an exciting one...we had a total of 4 cases in OT which totaled up to about almost 10 hours...of course there was break in between...if not, we would all have collapsed the next morning...we started the morning with a PGU repair which lasted a little more than 3 hours...it was a 1-week old PGU...so the abdomen was freaking dirty...filled with pus, bile and slough...which reminded me of cheese and scrambled eggs...hahahaha....then we had lunch...

Rested for a while and they called an appendicular mass...which i had no idea how to do...but i tried opening it up hoping that it was separable...but i ended up needing the 2nd MO to come in...and she did a good job in releasing the adhesion and we managed to ligate the appendix....then i had a quick dinner...had my favourite double mushroom swiss burger....

Then we started on the strangulated femoral hernia...couldn't save the bowels which was strangulated...so had to resect and anastomose...but he's a non-local..he'll live normally without 10cm of his small bowels...we thought that was it for the night...but then we had a 14 year-old boy post MVA 2 days...had splenic fracture...

We started the laparotomy about 1am...his blood pressure was so low and his abdomen was so distended and tense that we knew he would probably asystole as soon as we cut him open...as expected, as soon as we released the peritoneum, blood and clots were gushing out and he developed VF and we had to start CPR...we found the fractured spleen, clamped the vessels and cut it out...CPR lasted about 15 mins...we thought of closing him up and call it quits but we managed to revive him...so we managed to stop his bleeding...total haemoperitoneum was about 5L...that's about his whole blood volume already...

Patient was sent to ICU post-op...we thought he would probably have some brain damage since we CPR-ed him quite some time...but this evening my lady boss sent me a message saying that he was extubated, conscious and asking for iced lemon tea....sometimes, life surprises you with miracles that you least expect...really thank God that the boy survived...i guess God's trying to remind me that His miracles still exist just when i'm getting jaded and disillusioned...

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Baby Michelle...

Went to visit Pang, Sharon and baby Michelle today....she's really the most mild-tempered baby i've met...she slept through all our conversations and laughter....she was a bit jaundice...probably why she was always sleeping...but she really looks like Pang...anyway, here are some of her adorable pics....

Which is Pang and which is Michelle? hehe...

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

What's wrong with me?

I'm beginning to think that perhaps there is really something wrong with me...perhaps i'm not alone in this....there're probably plenty of people out there who are in the same boat as i am...but sometimes i really wish i was in another boat...which is the "i'm head-over-heel-in-love-and-blissfully-happy-with-the-guy-i've-always-wanted" boat...instead of the "why-do-i-always-fall-for-the-men-who-are-totally-unsuitable-for-me" boat...

All my life, i've always fell for guys whom my parents won't approve off...or guys who preferred my other girl friends...or guys who are way out of my reach...when i met my last ex, i thought i've finally grown out of that pattern...coz my parents loved him...in fact, everyone loved him...including me...except that eventually i screwed everything up by breaking up with him....then i fell right back into my old habit...

Maybe i'm getting desperate...since age is catching up...that's why i'm just going for the next guy that comes along...but that's not really true...coz i'm not even dating...well, there was that pseudo-dating...which ended up pretty shitty...my parents would have disowned me if i brought him home anyway...and we didn't even have anything in common...my friend blamed that on desperation and hormones...hahahaha....

And lately, i've managed to delude myself into liking this particular guy...who is the yin to my yang... 10 years ago, i wouldn't even have given him a 2nd look (yea ok, call me a snob but i only usually like guys who are tall, dark, sporty and adventurous)...i love music and he thinks music is noise pollution...i'm an idealist and he's a damn realist...i love reading fiction and he only reads facts...he hates the food i like...bottomline is, we're worlds apart...and the best thing is, i'm everything he doesn't want in a girl...and he will never fall for me...now really, what's wrong with me?

Of course there's also the all time Khalil-crush...he's totally unreachable...and he's not exactly drop-dead gorgeous...but listening to him always makes me feel better...sigh...i seriously am regressing...i need therapy....then again, maybe i'm beyond remedy...

Thursday, April 15, 2010

A special delivery....

I'm post call today...slept about 6 hours...uninterrupted...but still managed to feel tired the whole day... the morning went by just like every Thursday...clinic after morning round...then lunch...and was in minor OT...we finished 3 rubber bandings and 2 lymph nodes biopsy...then got a message from Jasmine saying that Sharon's in labour...os dilated 4cm...Elaine, Siang Lin, Flora and i went for dinner at 1Borneo before we went to see Sharon...i thought we'd be in time for the delivery coz Sharon's a primigravida...we even went to buy some baby clothes and blanket and chicken essence for Sharon...

But when we called Pang, he said baby's out already...aiya!!! so sad....missed the delivery...so we quickly went to the hospital...apparently, Pang did S&S twice and expedited the delivery...so Michelle Pang Shi Yan was born on 15/4/2010 at 7.50pm...Sharon braved through a spontaneous vaginal delivery aided by entonox....Sharon said it really works...made her pain so much more bearable... should try it next time...hehe...

So Elaine and i took turns feeding Michelle...and took lots of photos of her...i didn't have time to go back to take my camera...good thing Elaine brought hers...Michelle and Sharon were definitely the stars of the day....well, the birth of a baby is such a joyous occasion...may God bless Michelle with abundant love, joy and peace...and may Sharon and Pang be given the wisdom to bring her up to love God...will put up some pics when i get them from Elaine....

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Karaoke Saturday...

I'm post call today...was squatting in the doctor's room in female neurosurgery ward yesterday...since i'm still car-less...Becky came to send me home from the hospital this morning...then i continued sleeping till about lunch time...and Elaine came to pick me up for lunch and karaoke...Christine was joined us but unfortunately Flora was busy...

Siang Lin joined us for lunch at Secret Recipe and we were talking about his 1st locum OT experience...after that we went to K-box for our tuition/concert session...Elaine was commenting about Khalil and how he hasn't been asked to act in any movie...we spent about 3 hours singing and Christine had to go home to get her baby...so they sent me home and i logged on to FB...and what do you know? i saw a link to Khalil's page which reported that he'll be acting in a Wang Leehom directed movie which will be filmed in Shanghai...how cool is that? definitely will be waiting for the movie release....

Now i'm stuck at home...and feeling a little empty...and an idle mind is the devil's playground..since there's no one online to chat to, i guess i'll continue reading the book i borrowed from big boss...might write about it once i'm done with it...it has been very educational....dang!! tomorrow i'm on call again...and i won't be getting my car back till Tuesday...

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Double rainbow...

Boss and big boss commented that i seemed a little manic this morning...they blamed it on PTSD... perhaps, perhaps not...there could be another reason why i was a little uppety in my mood...and it might have to do with someone whose name starts with the letter K...hehe...

Anyway, today was a good day despite me still being crippled without my car...i was walking to my locum clinic from the hospital after work...it was raining earlier but while i was walking it was only drizzling a bit and the sun was just a little behind the clouds...and guess what i saw? double rainbow!!! and it stretched from horizon to horizon...it was pretty amazing...i've only seen it once before..this would be my second time...and it's lovely...double rainbow means double promise...

Hopefully that's a good omen...since i'm on call tomorrow...and i'll have to stay in Queen since i don't have my car...hopefully i'll be able to find a bed to sleep on...

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

The trouble i went through for Khalil...

Today was supposed to be a good day...coz it was the day i bought Khalil's concert ticket...boss actually allowed me to go off for a while after lunch to get the ticket...so i was happily driving to the place which sold Khalil's concert ticket...had a little trouble finding the place...so i had to take a big detour to get back to the place...on the way, while i was turning into the main road, i banged into a truck in front of me...i wasn't paying attention to the truck in front coz i was looking at the oncoming cars...anyway, i didn't see any cars so i thought can go lor...then bang!!! apparently the truck in front hasn't turn out...dang!!! the front of my car was quite totalled...thank God nothing happened to me... i didn't even feel the impact...i only heard the sound...as if it was from another car...

Got a good scolding from the truck owner...despite my profuse apologies and pledge that i would pay for his truck's damage...all the while i was thinking my car suffered worse damage than his truck...but well, it was my fault for driving straight into his truck...he even took photos of my car...and i...so scared i'd run off on him...so after i gave him my number (and address) and paid rm100 as deposit for the guy's truck damage, i drove my wrecked car to Tembok Besar...the travel agency which was selling Khalil's concert ticket...managed to find it...only to find out that the nearest seat i could get was the 13th row from the stage...

My heart sank...i was hoping that they'd be selling vvip tickets as well...that's like the first 5 rows from the stage...i would have been willing to pay more for the vvip seats...but those weren't on sale..crap!!! and since i didn't have cash and the agency didn't accept debit card, i had to walk a good 5 mins to the nearest ATM to withdraw money...so finally i bought my Khalil's concert ticket...i should be over the moon...but the occasion has been marred by an unfortunate accident...

Now i'll be rm2000 poorer after my car is fixed..more since i have to pay for the truck's damage as well...and i'll be crippled without a car for the next few days...and i'm on call in Queen on Friday...the mechanic said my car can only be ready on Saturday...sigh...i know i shouldn't complain...since it's my own fault..and i should really thank God that i wasn't hurt physically...i guess i'd be consoled a little if by some miracle i managed to get my hands on a vvip ticket....and perhaps a chance to be at his celebration party (like when i was at Khalil's concert in Taiwan)...yea, i know...wishful thinking... but a girl can hope yea?

Monday, April 5, 2010

An Easter call...

I was not supposed to be on call over the Easter weekend...coz Yap had been so kind to let me have a free weekend...but another colleague took leave so i had to take over her call yesterday...i managed to go to church after morning round...though i only arrived when the service was almost over...and God has blessed me with the best call i've ever had...as far as my record goes...

I didn't get any casualty referrals the whole day...probably coz it was raining cats and dogs in the afternoon...so no patients came to the hospital...i managed to meet up with Yoke Yeow who came to KK to give some ENT talk...joined him for a good free lunch...hehe...then came home and slept...could hardly sleep though...coz the sound of the rain on the rooftop was too loud...

Anyway, i only got some referrals about 8pm...so went to the hospital to see them...i was thinking oh no, maybe the onslaught has started...but God is good...i was in the hospital till about 1030pm...then i came home, bathed and slept...till 6am this morning...no interruption at all...this has never happened before...really thank God...

Today was our full day OT...i scrubbed for 2 cases...the first and last...well, we only had 5 cases and everyone was scrambling over each other to scrub...Sharon was AM duty in OT...so we had a good chat while i wasn't scrubbed...and then Kean Khang was PM duty...it's always fun having him around...boss said something nice about me today...he was telling another boss that our unit's OT did not have any cancellation last month...and that was thanks to my effort...i felt very appreciated...:) nobody wants to be in charge of doing OT lists...quite the thankless job...but i'm glad boss appreciated my effort...

Saturday, April 3, 2010

It was a Good Friday indeed...

I was on call on April Fool's Day...and it was quite a joke...coz i hardly slept during my call...which would have been fine since the following day was Good Friday and i could have come back home straight to bed...unfortunately, boss had asked me to be his driver on friday...and i was supposed to send him to the airport at about 10am...i didn't think i could stay awake that long to send him to the airport and make it back home in one piece...so in the end boss found someone else to send him to the airport...and i felt quite guilty for bailing out on him...hope that won't influence my SKT, hehe...

I came home and slept the whole day....totally knocked out till evening...then found out that cell was meeting in church with the other cells..we were watching 'Invictus'...and Elaine wanted to go karaoke... which put me in a dilemma...in the end, i chose to go to church and ended up watching Invictus again...which was actually good for me...after the movie, Becky, Flora and i went for a drink with Eric.. then came home and slept...

Woke up at 1030am plus today...asked my colleague to help me do rounds today...ran some errands...and managed to buy my flight tickets back to kl...for Khalil's concert and also my NZ trip... then went to 1Borneo for lunch with Elaine and Siang Lin...shopped a little...when we wanted to leave, we realized it was raining quite heavily...and i seemed to have misplaced my car...so i was frantically looking for it...and managed to get quite wet in the process...also managed to get one of the guards quite drenched too coz he was kind enough to help me look for my car...i'm such a fuddle-brain...couldn't even remember where i parked...so distracted...

Hung out at Elaine's place for a while before i went for my locum...it was a good 3-hour locum... there was no patient at all..and i spent the whole 3 hours reading a book i borrowed from big boss.. it's called 'What you teacher didn't tell you'...a very interesting lecture on the history of Malaysia which was never portrayed in our history textbooks...i've still got half of the book to finish...and i can just hear my boss saying that 3 hours would have been better spent on reading his surgical notes... yea yea, i'm a rebel...sue me...

Tomorrow's Easter...and i'm on call...hopefully it'll be a good call...better get some sleep before i turn into a pumpkin...good night...