In KL on the day of LeeHom's concert but....

I officially have a 'hate' feeling for my masters programme now...and don't anybody come telling me that i need to sacrifice a lot for my masters programme now so that i'd have a better future...first up, i don't even know if i'd live long enough to have a better future at the rate things are going...and God knows i'm sacrificing enough of my life for this stupid programme...why? you ask...

1. if it's not for masters, i wouldn't have to be in KL on the day of LeeHom's concert but yet can't stay to watch his concert...don't get me wrong, i was ready to sacrifice and not go for LeeHom's concert tomorrow...i knew i had to be on call one of the days this weekend...but then i was forced to go to KL for a day just to bloody present an 8-minute presentation and have to rush back to be on call the next day...it's just plain cruelty....urgh!!!!

2. if it's not for masters, i won't have to give up my travelling hobby...i can't bloody plan a holiday now coz my life is so bloody uncertain...my Greek September is currently on hold indefinitely...i don't mind if i have to give up my travelling hobby for my family (but look at no. 3)...

3. if it's not for masters, i wouldn't have to be a high risk primigravida at 36...assuming that i do bloody graduate at 34, managed to get myself married by then and still have about 2 years of honeymoon period with my hubby...i know a lot of ppl get married and have kids during their masters...but i'm not 'a lot of ppl'...i can't do it...for me, it's one or the other...i don't want to give divided attention to my children...

And exactly since when is 'sacrificing your life' a criteria to fulfill when doing your masters programme? who bloody made that a criterium? is life as it is not hard enough for us?

Ok, i just needed to get the rage out of my system...i know i really shouldn't complain too much...after all, my life has taken on a new beginning with the start of the new year...yup, i'm officially in a relationship now...yes, with a man...i may be bi-curious, but i don't think i've developed gay tendencies...i love my man...and he's totally head over heels in love with me...and i really do thank God that despite the circumstances i'm in, He has brought love into my life...

The only thing is this, my man is working so far away now...and we'll probably only get to see each other on a 3 monthly interval...and come next year (assuming we're still together), i don't know exactly when would be the date of our anniversary...hehe...oh, to be in love and not to be close to your beloved...such agony!! and the longing to be in your beloved's arms once more...bittersweet....Lord, please let him come home soon....