Whatever happened to chivalry?

I was supposed to be on call today...but another colleague changed his call with mine...so this week i'm actually quite free...till Friday...this morning was scope day...didn't get to do any OGDS...but saw lots of colonoscopy...we finally finished about 1.30pm...i was so hungry by then...although i hardly did anything...hehe...

After lunch the bosses were having viva for the HOs...i was settling the OT list for the visiting surgeons to Beaufort Hospital...then a colleague of mine walked in with 3 volumes of a patient's file...she said, "for mortality meeting"...great!!! 3 thick volumes to summarize...which i managed to before the bosses finished with their viva...

I followed boss' car to Queen so he offered to send me back to SMC to get my car...so there i was, carrying 3 thick files, walking with him to the carpark, which is about 3 mins walk...i think i was actually huffing and puffing while i was walking...but he only bothered to ask if i wanted him to help me carry the files when we were about 100m from his car...really, whatever happened to chivalry? not that i really expect guys to help me carry heavy stuffs...i'm quite the feminist...and i'm more than able to carry them...but really, chivalry is an extinct word in these modern days...

Came home feeling so sleepy...almost dozed off in the car a few times while i was driving back...thank God nothing happened...slept about 1 hour before i woke up for dinner...as usual, yoghurt and cereal...now i'm feeling sleepy again...yawn...

A surprise package....

Got a call from the courier man this morning as i was going to clinic...apparently there was a package for me...so he asked me where i would be and i asked him to come to the clinic....so about 11am, the nurse asked me to go to the counter coz there was a package for me...it was quite a big one...but quite light...kinda figured out that there were flowers inside....but i was busy seeing patients so i didn't get to open it till clinic ended...

So i opened the box and found a bouquet of white lilies with a card in it...but there was no sender...but i kind of figured out who sent the flowers...and my colleagues and bosses were teasing me and speculating about who the sender was...damn paiseh lah...unfortunately it wasn't from the person i hoped it was...what was i thinking, the person i hoped it was would never send me flowers...hahahaha...

Anyway, thanks for the lilies...it was a nice gesture...this was definitely the first time i've ever received flowers at work...but actually, i prefer flowers where they are growing....

Ice cream and 1st row ticket....

Yesterday was Mother's day...but i wasn't back at home to celebrate it with mom...but i did call her after i came back from church...we celebrated all the mothers at church during church service...and Pastor Kee Chuan prayed for the mothers and future mothers (i.e. those who plan to be mothers)....i cried...was quite touched with the prayer...and was wondering if i'll ever get a chance to be a mother...

I brought one of my HO to church with me...so after church, we went for lunch...Eric and Becky joined us too...then i came home, talked to mom a while...she was telling me about Sylvia's stint at the drama class...then i slept for 4 hours...ah..nice 'cat' nap....then i messaged Eric if he was still up for ice-cream coz earlier we wanted to go for ice-cream but Eric said i looked damn sleepy so i was hushed home...i had instant noodles for dinner since i was too lazy to go out to get dinner...Eric came to pick me up and we went to Vedablu at City Mall for ice-cream...i had Belgian chocolate and banana...and he had banana and strawberry...

Today started out like any usual Monday...with the blues...but just before lunch i got a msg that totally made my day...i was getting a 1st row seat ticket to Khalil's Timeless in Malaysia concert...aaaaahhhh!!!! just couldn't help grinning like an idiot....it's really gonna be my best birthday present ever...really appreciate the effort of the person who bought me the ticket..thank you...i'll be in cloud nine for the next couple of days...hehe...

A bizarre dream and a new phone

I had a bizarre dream again last night while i was napping before cell meeting...initially i was dreaming about me coming back to a squeaky clean house...apparently Jasmine has cleaned the house before cell meeting...but of course that was a dream and our house was still as messy as ever...and then it moved on to another scene...if you remembered i mentioned about the guy i dreamt about whom i kissed in the lift, well, he was in my dream again (let's call him the impossible guy)...and this time, we were on a boat off an island...of course there were other ppl as well...

And suddenly i heard that my latest ex-date was coming to join us...and i got scared and dived into the sea...but since i was neither Perseus nor any of Poseidon's offspring, i couldn't stay in the water for long...as i resurfaced, my impossible guy was there reaching out his hand to pull me up...and that was the 1st time he held my hand...and i didn't let go...and he didn't let go too...and it felt good...us holding hands...and my ex-date saw us...but my impossible guy asked me what are we supposed to tell my ex-date...i was like, nothing...and then we were walking on the beach...just the 2 of us...my impossible guy and me...and i woke up hitting my hand on the forehead several times... self-bashing myself for dreaming such an impossible dream...urgh!!!

Anyway, today was shopping day...after morning round, i went to CP to hunt for a new phone...didn't take too long...i saw some nokia phones...and 5130 caught my eye...and the price was within my budget...rm320...so i just bought it...it has a 2.0 megapixel camera, an MP3 player, radio, and a big enough screen...good enough for me...then i walked around and ended up buying a strapless long dress which i actually didn't need...but since it was rm150 and it looked good on me, i felt that i had to satisfy the bargain bug in me...well, i'm sure there'll be some weddings i could wear it to...

Back home now...still trying to get a hang of my new phone...going for high tea with Becky and Connie in a while...i love weekends without calls...hehe....

A dead phone on my Queen call...

So i was on Queen call yesterday...and it was also our OT day...and only boss was around...coz big boss and the other boss were not around...so boss was pissed and frustrated...and one of our case got cancelled coz the patient's blood pressure was sky high...although we've started her on 2 types of antihypertensives...and her blood pressure in the ward was quite acceptable...

Anyway, halfway through OT, my phone totally died..the keypads were not functioning so i couldn't switch on my phone...and it's quite the worst thing to happen when you're on Queen call...coz then all the referrals can't reach you...thank God for boss though...he offered to lend me his old phone...well, it's an old nokia with polyphonic ringtones...but hey, beggars can't be choosers...meanwhile, i asked the 1st call to take my calls for referrals...

We finished OT early so we were going to his place to get his phone and then off to lunch...but then we saw the 2nd call going to emergency OT for a perforated viscus...and since the 1st call was in Queen covering for me, i had to go into OT...so no lunch for me...and the case turned out to be a perforated jejunum...patient went to ICU post op...and now we have 2 patients with Bogota bag who are in sepsis...and boss emphasized to everyone that i was in both operations...

Anyway, boss brought his phone and charger for me...so i could resume my Queen call...but it's still quite inconvenient coz most of my numbers are in my phone...so i had to guess who were calling and who were messaging me...thank God i had a relatively good call although i stayed in the hospital last night...

I don't know if these are signs...but ever since i joined surgery department, a series of unfortunate events have befallen me...really, i just hope things won't get any worse...

I just realized something...

I just realized something as i was chatting to someone just now...most guys i used to like but whom didn't reciprocate my feelings are self-centred men...is it becoz i'm self-centred too, therefore i'm attracted to men like that? i'll be the one listening to their complaints, laments, etc etc etc...and yet they end up liking other girls...

Maybe that's why i made the mistake i did...coz maybe i was sick of being 'the friend'...so when a certain someone pursued me, i threw caution to the wind and dated him...this guy was what everyone calls a player...i knew that was bad news...but the hopeless romantic in me hoped against hope that maybe this guy was actually serious about me...well, in the beginning he was so interested in me...he wanted to know everything about me...i supposed if you were used to being the punching bag, that was quite a novelty...and definitely flattering...

But of course, as real world goes, there is no fairytale ending...well, the so-called relationship ended disastrously...totally hurt me...and now i'm back to my old bad habit...of falling for guys who would never fall for me...when i used to watch those Taiwanese series, i always imagined myself as the lead actress who ends up with the guy she loved...but my life is more like the girl who loses the guy to the lead actress...

Still, i know i shouldn't complain...coz God has seen me through all the dumps i've been in...He sent me friends who care...Eric sent me a msg saying Jeremiah 29:11...so i looked it up and this is what it said : For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future...now if i can only find out what His plans are for me...

Ip Man 2...and a little bit of a social life...

The past week has actually been quite a free week for me...it wasn't an OT week...and i wasn't on call for a whole 5 days....but i've been quite distracted...you know what they say about you can't run away from your past? it's true...you can't...your past will come back to haunt you and may just well ruin your future...is there any way one can run away from one's past and start life anew?

Anyway, this hermit was having a little bit of social life the past week....Monday night was GA department's farewell dinner for 2 of my former bosses...they are moving on to greener pastures i.e. going to private service...Kean Khang invited me to go so i was the only surgical person there...and i actually met one of my current boss at the restaurant...he was having dinner there as well...dang!! got caught...

Wednesday night i had dinner with Eric...but before that i had to go grocery shopping for my boss...we were organizing a basic surgical skill workshop for the housemen on Friday and Saturday...so he asked me to buy apples, pears, honeydew melon and plastic wrappers...the stuffs were quite heavy and i had to carry them on my own...anyway, dinner with Eric was at this Korean restaurant at Warisan Square...not sure if we were supposed to half the bill...but i kind of assume he was treating since he invited me for dinner...hehe...this hermit has poor social etiquette...

Then Thursday night was movie night....watched Ip Man 2 with Eric, Becky and Nora in 1B...after watching the movie, i felt very patriotic...and racist...it's one of those movies where you feel like standing up and clapping your hands as the credit rolls...if you're going for the storyline, then you'd be disappointed...coz it's pretty much the same as the first installment...they replaced a Japanese nemesis with an airhead English brute of a boxer...but the movie is about Ip Man after all...so who cares about the storyline? Donnie Yen as Ip Man totally beat Robert Pattinson as Edward Cullen anyday....I just love the way Donnie Yen fights...he's so graceful it's almost as if he was dancing instead of fighting...nothing brutish...and yet so powerful...

Friday night i was at church attending the opening of the Cutting Edge conference...i'm glad i went despite myself...coz the things that Pastor Sam spoke about really struck a raw chord...he said that we should be angry...at the atrocious wrong doings that are happening around us...and when we're angry, then we should take action to stand up against all these wrong doings...something that Pastor Sam said really spoke to me...he said that the things that God wants us to contend for, we are contented with...the things that God wants us to be contented with, we contend for...i realized how true that is in my life...and God must be so sad when He looks at my life...

I was on call yesterday...yes, labouring on labour day...shall not complain about how tiring it was...i'm just glad i still made it to church this morning..albeit an hour late...was supposed to watch IronMan 2 this afternoon but after lunch with Flora and Elaine at the Manhattan Fish Market, i came home and slept till almost dinner time...i think today is the 'drop your stuffs' day...my front car plate fell off while i was driving back from 1B...saw another car plate on the road along the way...and saw a shoe on the road just before i reach home...

Dang! now i have to drive without my car plate...need to pick Jasmine up from the airport...hopefully won't get stopped by the police...not sure when i'll have time to get a new one fixed...oh well...one day at a time...one day at a time...