脆弱...一半

为什么当我最脆弱的时候你的简讯就突然来问候我? 我不要你对我朋友的关心。。。我最讨厌你同情我。。。为什么不能喜欢我? 不能爱我? 难道我真的有那么差么? 对，我现在真的很需要安慰。。。但我不要你用朋友的身份来安慰我。。。但你做不到。。。者三个星期内，我已经面对了三个死亡。。。最初是爸爸离开了。。。后来周一同事的爸爸也去了。。。今天好朋友打电话来说她婆婆昨天也走了。。。太多死亡了。。。让我很害怕。。。很害怕随时又再失去我珍惜的人。。。

可能我还是比较适合一个人的生活。。。至少不知拥有就不知失落。。。我生命的主题曲该是丁当的“一半”。。。跟你们分享歌词吧。。。顺便翻译一下。。。

喝酒的伴 一起看电影的伴 (drinking partners, movie partners)
早午晚餐的那个伴 (the companion for breakfast, lunch and dinner)
朋友不能留得太晚 明天要上班 (friends can't stay out too late, tomorrow need to work)
唱K的伴 一起去旅行的伴 (karaoke partners, travel partners)
听懂我的笑话的伴 (a companion that understands my jokes)
我的生活 只差那个人就美满 (my life lacks that one person then it will be complete)

快乐少一人分享 快乐就只剩一半 (happiness that lacks another person to share with is happiness halved)
喝一碗汤 (drink a bowl of soup)
心怎么都不够暖 (why doesn't my heart feel warm enough?)
这张被单 这张睡床 (this quilt, this bed)
再舒服都觉得太宽 (no matter how comfortable it still feels too wide)
没人分享 幸福就只剩一半 (with no one to share with, happiness is halved)
就算把日子都填满 (even if days are filled)
节日却提醒我孤单 (holidays remind me i'm lonely)

没有想法 有想法又能怎样 (what does it matter if you have idea or not?)
只能写部落格整晚 (can only write blog all night long)
几个留言安慰不了 心里的遗憾 (a few comments cannot comfort my heart's regrets)
没有负担 原来也是种负担 (no burden is actually a kind of burden)
自由多得让人心慌 (how often can freedom cause someone's heart miss a beat?)
你羡慕我 那要不要跟我交换 (you envy me? then do you want to exchange?)

快乐少一人分享 快乐就只剩一半 (happiness that lacks another person to share with is happiness halved)
喝一碗汤 心怎么都不够暖 (drink a bowl of soup, why doesn't my heart feel warm enough?)
这张被单 这张睡床 (this quilt, this bed)
再舒服都觉得太宽 (no matter how comfortable it still feels too wide)
没人分享 幸福就只剩一半 (with no one to share with, happiness is halved)
努力把日子都填满 (trying hard to fill up my days)
别来提醒 我的孤单 (don't come to remind me that i'm lonely)

快乐少一人分享 快乐就只剩一半 (happiness that lacks another person to share with is happiness halved)
喝一碗汤 心怎么都不够暖 (drink a bowl of soup, why doesn't my heart feel warm enough?)
这张被单 这张睡床 (this quilt, this bed)
再舒服都觉得太宽 (no matter how comfortable it still feels too wide)
没人分享 幸福就只剩一半 (with no one to share with, happiness is halved)
就算把日子都填满 (even if my days are filled)
没人知道 我多孤单 (no one knows how lonely i am)

好了啦。。。我该睡了。。。睡在我太宽的床。。。晚安啦。。。