The 12 days of New Year...

So today is the 12th day of the New Year...which also meant i've already been working 2 weeks in 'hell' again...although the grass is no longer green...and life is no longer as good as the last 3 months, i really thank God that it hasn't been the 'hell' i've been expecting...but then again, the flap frenzy has not started yet...i might be singing a different tune when it does...

Still, after only 2 weeks, i'm already tired...and feeling a little low...must be the lack of sun exposure...but i really praise the Lord that my past few calls have been amazingly good...if not, i'd probably feel worse...yesterday was GA OT day...i thought i wouldn't be able to go to CF coz i expected a long day...but miraculously the last case got cancelled and i managed to go to CF...albeit a bit late...and despite the talk lasting almost 2 hours, i miraculously made it through the whole talk without falling asleep within the 1st half hour...God is so amazing...

I liked what the speaker quoted from CS Lewis...he said: Sin is man telling God, "go away! leave me alone!"...and hell is God's reply to man saying, "have your wish"...i couldn't help nodding in agreement...this concept is quite liberating for me when it comes to the question, why is there hell if God is a loving and compassionate God...He didn't create hell with the intention to torture His children...but we choose hell when we do not choose God's love...because really, without God's love, life is hell...you don't even have to wait till afterlife...and therefore i should not call the place/condition i am in now 'hell' since i know God's love is with me...

Saw a link which a friend put up on FB...it was Jason Mraz's new song called 'I won't give up'...i was intrigued...so i listened to it...and i loved it...i really liked the idea of the song...how this guy won't give up on his hope for 'us' with the girl....in this twisted hopeless romantic mind of mine, i felt like this song sang of the feeling of a certain guy for me...yup, i've got my head too far up in the clouds...getting quite delusional...anyway, here's the link:

Jason Mraz - I Won't Give Up

So the new year has started off quite bearable...i guess if you were expecting the worse, anything less than worse is really not bad at all...i just pray that when things do get worse, i would still be holding on to God and trust in Him to help me through tough times...so here's to 2012...have a great one...even if the world ends...

Lucky

So i've been listening to Jason Mraz quite often lately (but not as often as Khalil Fong ;P)...there's a song in the album called "Lucky", which featured Colbie Caillat...somehow when i hear this song, tears kind of start welling in my eyes...i wonder why...probably coz i know it'll never happen to me...not becoz i don't have guy buddies...it's just that my guy buddies will never fall for me (romantically) and therefore, vice versa...

I took one of those quizzes on facebook on "who will you fall for?" or one of its variation...my result was that i'd fall for my best friend...i couldn't help but laugh to myself...i mean, there's no more guy buddies left for me to fall for, really..all my guy buddies are in a stable relationship (with another girl) -_-" sigh...i think i'll stick to my fish omen...seems more promising, hahaha...

Anyway, here are the lyrics of Lucky...

Do you hear me talking to you
Across the water, across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky
Oh my baby, I'm trying

Boy i hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

Lucky i'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where i have been
Lucky to be coming home again

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you, I promise you, I will

Lucky i'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where i have been
Lucky to be coming home again

Lucky we're in love in everyway
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

So I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair

Through the breezes, through the trees
More so pretty you're all i see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

So there...perhaps one day i'll get 'lucky' too...till then, life goes on...maybe it's time to look for new guy buddies, hehehe...;P

We Sing. We Dance. We Steal Things - Jason Mraz

It's Sunday today...woke up at 9.15am..felt like giving church a skip...but dragged myself out of bed anyway...reached church few minutes after worship session started.. gave my tithe ( I was sure I took out all the big notes and put it in the offering bag)..sermon was on Jesus exposing legalism of the Pharisees, Sadducees and scribes... how appropriate...there i was feeling like a hypocrite..being in church when i wished i was somewhere else...but there wasn't really any particular place i'd rather be in though...

Anyway, after service, went to CP..been wanting to get Jason Mraz's We Sing. We Dance. We Steal Things since i heard his Live High...so i paid rm39.90 for 3 of his discs and they even threw in his t-shirt...quite a good deal...especially since his songs sounded really good...love his groove..


I actually wanted to get Joanna & Wang Ruo Lin too..but it was a bit more expensive and i thought i didn't have enough money to buy it..so i settled with just one album today...as i was getting my wallet to pay, guess what i found in my wallet? there were 2 rm50 notes in my wallet!!! (which was supposed to have been put into the offering bag in church earlier)...dang!!! now i look really bad (good thing Jesus doesn't judge as human does)...will give the left out tithe next week -_-"

Oh well, since i had the extra cash, i decided to go shopping (trying out what my sister calls retail therapy, haha)...bought a pair of casual pants, 2 pair of shorts and a pair of flip-flops (preparation for Bali, i know it's still 3 weeks away but i'll be busy after this weekend ;P)...

So back to Jason Mraz...love the album art..love his music..love his lyrics..love his voice..love his casual, honest, in-your-face views on things that matters...though if it was his writing that was used in the album, i guess we're equal (horrible hand-writing)... besides Live High, there was another song that caught me at 'first listen'...it's called A Beautiful Mess...i felt as if it was written for me (about me)...haha...how conceited...and Jason Mraz doesn't even know i exist..but i think most girls can relate to this song very well...here's how it goes...

You got the best of both worlds
You're the kind of girl who can take down a man and lift him back up again
You are strong but you're needy
Humble but you're greedy
Based on your body language and shoddy cursive
I've been reading your style is quite selective though your mind is rather reckless
Well I guess it just suggests
That this is just what happiness is

Hey what a beautiful mess this is
It's like picking up trash in dresses
Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write
Kind of turn themselves into knives
And don't my nerve
You can call it fiction but I like being submerged in your contradictions dear
Cause here we are here we are

Although you're biased I love your advice
Your comebacks, they're quick and probably have to do with your insecurities
There's no shame in being crazy
Depending on how you take these words I'm paraphrasing
This relationship we're staging

And what a beautiful mess this is
It's like picking up trash in dresses
Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you say
Kind of turn themselves into blades
Kind and courteous is a life I've heard
But it's nice to say that we played in the dirt oh dear
Cause here we are here we are here we are (x7)

We're still here
What a beautiful mess this is
It's like taking a guess when the only answer is yes
And through timeless words and priceless pictures
We'll fly like birds not of this earth
Tides they turn and hearts disfigure
But that's no concern when we're wounded together
And we tore our dresses and stained our shirts
But it's nice today
The wait was so worth it...

Now i only need the right guy to sing this one for me..Well, it's time to work out on my elliptical trainer..and then need to get ready for my 'sleepover' at the locum clinic tonight...

Live High

I just found some videos on youtube on Jason Mraz's concert that was held in early March..he was in Hong Kong on 2/3/09 and Malaysia on 4/3/09 (too bad i couldn't go back for that)..but guess who was Jason Mraz's guest star in Hong Kong? It was Khalil Fong!!! Ok, so he wasn't the only one..Fiona Sit was there too..Anyway, Jason and Khalil were singing Jason's "Live High"...it was so cool..although initially Khalil did sound a bit muffled..but it was probably coz the crowd went wild when he started singing and kinda drowned his voice..and he did look a little awkward..though eventually he did get into the groove..it's good to know that Khalil held his own even when singing next to Jason Mraz..:)

Anyway, here a link to the video (not sure if you can actually get there from here)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SOcNzrMU0gE

And here's the lyrics to "Live High" (should be correct now, since i checked with the lyrics from the album)

I try to picture a girl
Through a looking glass
See her as a carbon atom
See her eyes and stare back at them
See that girl
As her own new world
Though her home is on the surface, she is still a universe

Glory god or goddess peeking through the blinds
Are we all here standing naked
Taking guesses at the actual date and time
Oh my, justifying reasons why
Is an absolutely insane resolution to live by

Live high
Live mighty
Live righteously
Taking it easy
Live high, live mighty
Live righteously

I try to picture the man
To always have an open hand
And see him as a giving tree
See him as matter
Matter of fact he's not a beast
No not the devil either
Always a good deed doer
And it's laughter that we're making after all

The call of the wild is still an order nation wide
In the order of the primates
All our politics are too late
Oh my, the congregation in my mind
Is an assembly singing their gratitude
And practicing ther loving of you

Live high
Live mighty
Live righteously
Taking it easy
Live high, live mighty
Oh live righteously

Just take it easy
And celebrate the malleable reality
Because nothing is ever as it seems
Yeah this life is but a dream

Lift me up to Thee Almighty
Raise your hands and start acknowledging He
If you're living it righteously
Then you're taking the easy way
Just just just take take take takin' it easy
Live mighty mighty mighty
Living righteously
Live high
Lift me up to Thee
Living righteously
Live high
Celebrate and feel the love inside
Live high
Oh live righteously..
Just take it easy

It's late..need to sleep..good night..live high...zzzzzzz