There was an interesting case we saw in clinic yesterday...the HO came in with a fistulogram film and asked boss what he thought was the radiopaque strands on the film...i saw it and asked boss, what is a gauze doing in the patient's abdomen and boss looked a little stunned...anyway he went to look for big boss and some discussion went on....i was called to OT for a toilet mastectomy so i left the clinic and went back to SMC...yea, no surprise that i was on call again last night...
Fast forward a few hours later, i saw the patient in the ward...looked through her old notes and saw that i was one of the GA MO who gave her gas for one of her op...anyway, she was planned for exploration and removal of foreign body...fast forward a few hours later, she was called to OT...unfortunately her BP was a bit too high for the liking of Karen...so the case was postponed...fast forward to this morning, the on call team today went in for op and took out the gauze...i was right about the gauze then...but pity the patient that she had to go through the last few months with fistula caused by the retained gauze...and that she had to undergo another round of GA to remove it...
Anyway, Cam and i were discussing about a trip to New Zealand this August yesterday night... and we've decided on the dates and all...and she booked her tickets online....i planned to book mine today when i got back from the hospital....unfortunately from 1pm till about 3pm i was trying to book my tickets...without success...it just won't let me go to the payment page...despite my trying different internet browsers and all...even as i'm typing now, i'm still trying to book my tickets...no luck so far... what the hell is wrong with the MAS website? i don't care, i'm going to New Zealand whether or not this is a sign that maybe i shouldn't go...
After round this morning, Shirley called me to go for dim sum...i got to know her through her mom... who had quite a long stay in ICU last year...anyway, her mom is back in the hospital...so we went for breakfast and had a good chat...and we ended up talking about guys coz she was thinking of introducing some of her or her husband's guy friends to me...
So anyway, i told her about my ex of 5 years...and about how he really was a great guy and all...but i let him go becoz somehow i no longer felt the love i had for him...and she told me about her first ex...whom she dated for 8 years...she said theirs was a passionate love affair and all...and she actually defied her parents and left everything in Malaysia to go to be with him in London...but in the end she was deeply hurt...coz the guy was having an affair with his colleague...so she came back to Malaysia and had to start all over again...she said her ex woke her up to reality...and she decided that she'd rather have a stable relationship than a passionate love affair...so when she met her husband, she knew he was the stable family man who would give her the kind of life she thought was better for her...she said that being in a passionate love affair is very emotionally draining and tiring...
She said that maybe i prefer 'bad boys' than 'good boys'...so she suggested that i should try dating 'bad boys' so that i can appreciate the better qualities of 'good boys'....i told her that i've dated 'bad boys' before back in high school and even in uni....and i agreed that it was emotionally draining....what i didn't tell her though, was that recently i did the same again....and ended up hurt as well...Shirley said that maybe i wasn't hurt deep enough, that's why i never learnt...but i supposed different people allow themselves to suffer different depth of hurt...and i guess i always shield my heart from feeling the real extent of the hurt i'm supposed to be feeling coz it's just too painful and i can't bear it...
After i gave up on booking the tics, i slept for like 15 mins and Pang called...he said it was time to send him and Sharon to the airport...i was like, it's only 315pm, your flight is at 5pm, i'll come by 345pm to pick you guys up....i tried sleeping for a while some more...about 15 mins later Pang called again...Sharon was afraid they'd be late for check-in...so i dragged myself out of bed and went to pick them up...got them there before 4pm...was on the way to buy a cake for Becky since cell meeting tonight we're celebrating her birthday...
Pang called while i was driving and said that their flight was actually rescheduled to 7pm...i was like, what? so i went to pick them up and we went for a drink at Tg Aru First Beach....at that Mediterranean Bar and Restaurant...boy, i missed watching the beach...it was a good thing i guess...but it was a bit too warm...and we couldn't sit till the sun set...but it was still good to be able to catch up with Pang and Sharon....
I was telling them about Pei's STPM results...we all agreed that perhaps her results would have saved her from going through the misery that we call life...or more like the lack of it...all of us have been so busy that we've hardly seen our friends as often as we would like to...not to say that i regret the path i chose...but perhaps it's just human to think that there must be more to life than just my work...i supposed you need a certain degree of masochism to fit into such profession....
Anyhow, i'm so dreading going through cell tonight...i'm just not in the mood for cell...i just can't run coz we're having it at my place...urgh!!! Lord, help me....sigh...it's time to go...
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