I'm beginning to think that perhaps there is really something wrong with me...perhaps i'm not alone in this....there're probably plenty of people out there who are in the same boat as i am...but sometimes i really wish i was in another boat...which is the "i'm head-over-heel-in-love-and-blissfully-happy-with-the-guy-i've-always-wanted" boat...instead of the "why-do-i-always-fall-for-the-men-who-are-totally-unsuitable-for-me" boat...
All my life, i've always fell for guys whom my parents won't approve off...or guys who preferred my other girl friends...or guys who are way out of my reach...when i met my last ex, i thought i've finally grown out of that pattern...coz my parents loved him...in fact, everyone loved him...including me...except that eventually i screwed everything up by breaking up with him....then i fell right back into my old habit...
Maybe i'm getting desperate...since age is catching up...that's why i'm just going for the next guy that comes along...but that's not really true...coz i'm not even dating...well, there was that pseudo-dating...which ended up pretty shitty...my parents would have disowned me if i brought him home anyway...and we didn't even have anything in common...my friend blamed that on desperation and hormones...hahahaha....
And lately, i've managed to delude myself into liking this particular guy...who is the yin to my yang... 10 years ago, i wouldn't even have given him a 2nd look (yea ok, call me a snob but i only usually like guys who are tall, dark, sporty and adventurous)...i love music and he thinks music is noise pollution...i'm an idealist and he's a damn realist...i love reading fiction and he only reads facts...he hates the food i like...bottomline is, we're worlds apart...and the best thing is, i'm everything he doesn't want in a girl...and he will never fall for me...now really, what's wrong with me?
Of course there's also the all time Khalil-crush...he's totally unreachable...and he's not exactly drop-dead gorgeous...but listening to him always makes me feel better...sigh...i seriously am regressing...i need therapy....then again, maybe i'm beyond remedy...
Kat,
ReplyDeleteNothing's wrong with you. You're beautiful the way you are. You are, You. Take all those that make you you and we end up with a just a body, a body with no soul and originality.
By the way, who's the new guy? =P
Lok (can write on msn or fb, if u feel like replying =P)
Get out of your comfort zone i.e, Sabah.
ReplyDeletePOTS, you really think i should leave Sabah? but if i went back to KL, i'll never hear the end of my mom's nagging...for me to settle down...sigh...
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